The Discovery
SOCIOPATHS!!! This word has different meanings for different people. Those with no knowledge on the subject simply categorize them as 'insane,' or 'mentally ill.' But what does this word really mean? Sociopaths are people who show a very limited range of human emotions, lack empathy and are considered harmful to the society. According to experts, 3% of the men and 1% of women in the world are sociopaths. The general understanding is that these people are sadistic, destructive, animal torturing savages who would go out of their way to destroy you. But is that necessarily true?
This topic caught my attention during the ethics class, when I shocked some people by revealing how I feel about certain sensitive situations during a class discussion. After the class, I actually had a friend approach me and ask me if that was how I really felt. She is a former student of sociology and criminal psychology who has read books like "without conscience" and "confessions of a sociopath." When she confronted me and asked me to consider the fact that I could be a sociopath. My reaction to this was hysterical laughter. How could I be a sociopath? My idea of a sociopath back then was that they were mentally disturbed people with a particularly traumatic childhood and a predisposition to commit violent crimes. Just the way they are depicted in most movies.
At first I discounted the notion, but decided to do my research anyway, as with anything new I come across. After reading the book "confessions of a sociopath" by M.E.Thomas however, I was surprised to find the similarities in our thinking and behavior. The way I think, behave, and react to the people around me, I was more similar to her than I have been to any other person I have met before. In fact, I considered my behavior to be normal, and was surprised when someone reacted negatively to my approach.
Finally, after deciding that it wouldn't really harm my interest, and to satisfy my own curiosity, I set up an appointment with a psychiatrist. After answering a series of questions, and giving a few tests, she determined that I had a condition called "ASPD." It took her over 30 minutes to convince me by illustrating examples from the incidents I shared about my life. That was two months ago. Between that time and now, I read even more blogs and articles online, articles of people sharing their "traumatic" life experiences when dealing with a sociopath. As always, I determined that if people are stupid enough to fall for emotional manipulation, then they deserve it. After all, there is no place for emotions in making life choices. I grew up watching people getting depressed because someone treated them badly, I watched with contempt as my friends recovered from messy break-ups, never understanding why someone would get hurt by something which is irrelevant to their existence.
To wrap it all up, the main purpose of this blog will be to share my experiences, and give you empaths some insight into what and how I feel about things. Needless to say that I will not reveal my identity. I like to fly under the radar, makes my life easy.
P.S. I will try to keep the blog updated as much as I can. I intend to publish weekly articles.
This topic caught my attention during the ethics class, when I shocked some people by revealing how I feel about certain sensitive situations during a class discussion. After the class, I actually had a friend approach me and ask me if that was how I really felt. She is a former student of sociology and criminal psychology who has read books like "without conscience" and "confessions of a sociopath." When she confronted me and asked me to consider the fact that I could be a sociopath. My reaction to this was hysterical laughter. How could I be a sociopath? My idea of a sociopath back then was that they were mentally disturbed people with a particularly traumatic childhood and a predisposition to commit violent crimes. Just the way they are depicted in most movies.
At first I discounted the notion, but decided to do my research anyway, as with anything new I come across. After reading the book "confessions of a sociopath" by M.E.Thomas however, I was surprised to find the similarities in our thinking and behavior. The way I think, behave, and react to the people around me, I was more similar to her than I have been to any other person I have met before. In fact, I considered my behavior to be normal, and was surprised when someone reacted negatively to my approach.
Finally, after deciding that it wouldn't really harm my interest, and to satisfy my own curiosity, I set up an appointment with a psychiatrist. After answering a series of questions, and giving a few tests, she determined that I had a condition called "ASPD." It took her over 30 minutes to convince me by illustrating examples from the incidents I shared about my life. That was two months ago. Between that time and now, I read even more blogs and articles online, articles of people sharing their "traumatic" life experiences when dealing with a sociopath. As always, I determined that if people are stupid enough to fall for emotional manipulation, then they deserve it. After all, there is no place for emotions in making life choices. I grew up watching people getting depressed because someone treated them badly, I watched with contempt as my friends recovered from messy break-ups, never understanding why someone would get hurt by something which is irrelevant to their existence.
To wrap it all up, the main purpose of this blog will be to share my experiences, and give you empaths some insight into what and how I feel about things. Needless to say that I will not reveal my identity. I like to fly under the radar, makes my life easy.
P.S. I will try to keep the blog updated as much as I can. I intend to publish weekly articles.
